It's Not the Same

Sundays are by far my longest, gloomiest (is that a word?) days..
Nothing screams louder to me
that our life is strange & different
than on Sundays.

I'm realizing that it's so much
more than just not having Darren around...although that is huge!
I still feel lost, disoriented, in a lonely, head spinning kind of way on Sundays.
Since we are not "in ministry"  our weekends are different,
 Not strange, just different from what I have ever, ever known!

all over my life...all over my family! ALL OVER!

Psalm 100
On your feet now—applaud God! Bring a gift of laughter,
sing yourselves into his presence.

Know this: God is God, and God, God.
He made us; we didn't make him.
We're his people, his well-tended sheep.

  Enter with the password: "Thank you!"
Make yourselves at home, talking praise.
Thank him. Worship him.

  For God is sheer beauty,
all-generous in love,
loyal always and ever.

When I was in CA this last weekend, we almost didn't
make it to church. We were up late watching a movie the night before,
we were enjoying our lazy, last morning together,
but at the last minute (literally 15 min before we had to leave)
we decided to go! I'm so glad we went!
I miss going to church with Darren...my soul needed it..we needed it!

After an awesome salvation message, sweet communion together,
they ended the service with this song..one of my faves!!!
I couldn't keep back the tears! This song, every word
describes my heart!

You are Peace when my fear is crippling,
You are true even in my wandering,
You are JOY,
You're the reason that I sing!
I'm running to You!

Vintage Faith

Santa Cruz
The riches of His love will ALWAYS, ALWAYS be enough!
 Running to His arms!


Robin said...

I'm so thankful for this post! Your honesty and vulnerabilty resonates with my heart!
I get it sister!
Look for Him during this time and search for the 'different' ways in which He is coming to you.
He is showing you new things and expanding your boundaries.
Tracy you are free to run in fields of His grace. SO RUN!

Tracy: said...

I know you get this..I know! Thankful you get it WITH me! I am running, thanks for running this race with me! i love u!